2009/2/1
 
爸爸在FACEBOOK上寫了幾封信給他的女兒HANA
分享給大家~~~希望他會一直持續的寫下去
 
This facebook is not for myself, is for Hana.

I hope one day she will come and read this, to know times when she was borne, and come to understand the feeling and experience of her father…..

I was away in Malaysia when Hana came to this world. In a way, I missed the “anxiety” of waiting outside the operating room. I some time wonder maybe for this I am not a father in completeness. But I know I love her….

So much happened in this three first month of Hana’s life. Our life changed, our sense of duty changed, and our purposes of life and work changed……unconsciously and significantly. Have not watched a complete DVD for three months now, the shop that first comes to my mind when thinking of shopping is now baby shop….We noticed the changes happened to us but willingly accepted all these, because she is our daughter, because this is the very human nature that enables the continuity from generation to generation.

Hana came in a time when the world dipped into economy gloom. Uncertainty, difficulty and adversity…Surely she does not realize all these, we would buffer her even she is older and can understand the situation. I think deeply every time when I look at her: how am I going to teach her all the imperfectness of this world, while keeping her “naiveness” and growing her strength. Many world laugh at my thinking-too-much, I think I just try to prepare myself for her.

I’m still learning. We just bought a book that tells us should let her cry and not try to hug her and “fulfill” her all the time. A controversy book and teaching, many debate on this in the net. We tried it out from yesterday, not an easy “job” not to “touch” her when she crying aloud (even to the stage of coughing), heart and ear-breaking. But we did it. And she started to “accept” this. While…accepting is believing, believing she is still being cared off when we are out of her sight.

The writing is enjoyable. Wondering how would Hana feel when come to read these 10 years later
 
  
 

 
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